All you Trekkies and TV addicts, dont mean to dis dont mean to bring static!

u think she cares.. pat??

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 03:11:38 GMT

hey there ya fuckface! YOU are a legitimate target.

jk. im really pissed right now, it seems that i can never write an entry worth your peoples time.
i think ive reached the lowest point of my senior year. rock bottom. i cant fall even more than i have. everythings just gone to waste. school, friends, GRADES, anyhing a high school senior has to fucking deal with. it seems that the harder i try, the worst things keep on getting. im going to UCI now, with a help of some "influential friends" whatever the fuck u want to call it. i should be out enjoying these final days, but im not. i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me?? i want to go, but at the same time i cant. is this possible? is pat cacdac pussying out of college? the answer is no. im going but i can never forget high school. a ha! thats it. thats why im in a pissy mood. with all the shit that ive dealt with ive enjoyed every fucking inch.. well almost.if ur confused about how im feeling writing this journal entry, dont cha' worry. cuz even I... am just as confused. graduation will be bittersweet. so much has happened over the last 4 years. the stories i can fucking tell you. the stories ill be telling my kids. in the end the good outweighs the bad. from driving in a public park, getting my phone stolen by drug dealers.. REALLY that shit REALLY DID HAPPEN), almost dying on a hike, going to "jsa fallstate" on my birthday, sort of. falling for the girls i cant get<-- this will continue on, and has been in full effect for tha past 3 weeks.. and just so much shit.

thanks to all of you that have MADE high school what it was for me.
friends famm all you.
the teachers who were stupid enough to give me that A. i still luv ya!
the coaches who didnt kick me off the team despite my cameo appearances at practice.
to my best friends. yall know who u are. you guys have been there since the beginnin'. i wish all of u the best of luck in college. keep it realllll
the peoples ill be leavin behind, i luv you guys. hopefully ur senior year wont turn out so fucking crazy as mine did. if we never see/ talk again.. well.. we just wont.lol
the movies ?!the fucking songs!? every goddamn thing. in n out. kanyes workout plan. phil. hell..
even my counselor.

goodnite everyone.

this year aint fucking over yet.

im ready. i think.

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 01:18:51 GMT

so i was walking to my car after i finished my makeup physics quiz *insert realy loud FUCK!!...* it was really quiet.. then all of a sudden something hit me. NO shithead, not a car. a feeling. a feeling of accomplishment.completion and sadness. mixed emotions rellly.... in only a matter of months im leaving. ill never be at this place again. ya ill eventually come back, but what i mean is ill never be a senior again, ill never be in high school again (that is unless i FAIL all classes,thats unlikely..i hope). i couldnt believe i was here. has it been 4 yrs? everything just hit me right there and then. i thought about every thing ive done. good times with friends, and bad.. one thing that stuck in my head was the regrets. i have many regrets. some even too dangerrrous for LJ.lol.. so many times i said to myself, what if i had done that or what if i didnt do that??..or the occasional.."WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING" o yea.. and also " shoulda told HER."...DAMN.lol.. anyways i was thinking bout lots of stuff. i sat in my car for about 20 minutes just reminiscin bout lotsa things. never again will i run at 6am with a team, be able to learn the "eggbeater" in the pool. play tennis with a team. fuck around in government.. oh, and ditch english. THIS is it. this is the time to fix broken friendships. say what u have to say to them. theres a damn good possibility this is the last time youll ever be with all these people again.

o yea. i miss the philippines as well.

life moves pretty fast, if u dont stop and take a look.. u might miss it.

its been far too long..

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 03:45:40 GMT

i promised id update. but i never seem to keep my promises. life right now has been confusing. a bit. the people. the school. everything. it's all been hell. i keep hoping this shit will get better. but it never seems to be the case. anyways the apps have been sent, and although i thought my mind would be at ease, its even more stressed than b4. my grades keep falling. do they ever stop? well not exactly. the people i love most are turning their backs. cant do much about that. im leaving in couple of days for break. i hope i can come back better. with relationships... well.. its really complicated. it always seems as if im too late. with everything. i had a chance. i blow it. seems to be the streak lately.anyways enuf with this bitchin. this break is gona be different. im actually gona spend time with the people i want to. ill try to update more. TRY.

thanks shasta. for everything

Patrick C.

fuckk.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 05:31:22 GMT

today has been a shitty day. but thank u anyhow.

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 05:42:11 GMT

been a bit busy lately. homecoming last weekend was dooope. altho it coulda been better. i enjoyed my final homecoming. ate at melvins..made prank fone calls with barb and ashleyp to Daniel and brad...who were sitting right across from us...SLAP. after could have been better. school is easy. classes are fun, and not as demanding as i thought. friends are doope. LONG ASS LUNCH makes my days even better. i come home and sleeep. wake up at 8 do a bit of hmwrk. and sleep. my cell broke.. AGAIN...goddamnit i can never seem to keep the same cellfone for over a month without breaking it or losing it. SHIIT! so i lost every1s # and dont plan on adding to my fonebook. it takes a long time.

PEACE and FREEDOM is my party for GOV. its me ariela veena dnl brad rick, renee max laura and autumn. ourideas are so fucking out there. its great. LEGALIZE MARIJUANA..YAAAA...RAISE MINIMUM WAGE...WOOT!!... FREEE ABORTIONS.....(silence)........ hehe well ya its kinda fun. we have a kickass idea for our campaign ads n shit.

TENNIS. ive been playin more tennis lately..mayb cuz this is most likely the last time ill ever play the sport again. its been fun. so im gettin ready for the season pretty early.. i guess. ill miss it. as will i miss the plaza racquet club when i graduate.

as i said this year has been great so far. my friends are cool n ishh and despite some not being on campus any longer i still keep in touch with friends of c/o 04. called shasty the other night. im glad that things are going good for her in UCR.. despite some akward ROOMMATES...lol. thanks shasta for all your kind words. ran into willy at the racquet club the other day... i guess that foo had a kickass summer in jamaica... and even better times in college so far.i dont see some ppl i used to see last year during skule. mayb its cuz of schedule or something. when i do see themm, its always that akward nod of the head. and we move on. eh. i think its best that way. for me at least.

well anywaysssss this entry took me wwaaay longer then i expected.
maybe cuz of the mood. rodney dangerfield died.janet leigh died...
and SCOTTIE motherfuckin PIPPEN... #33 has announced retirement.
i think im taking it pretty good so far.

catch ya later.

this is it.

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 04:11:38 GMT

as i was reading frankie's journal entry, i couldnt help but see how much i was reminded of myself. going into my senior yr, i have my back against the wall. mediocre grades and activities, partying on and off. parents who trust me, and give whatever i ask. when they really shouldnt. and constant laziness. the attributes of a spoiled pig. yes i think thats what u can call me from now on. in years past around this time, id always have a feeling, a good feeling that this year will be much better. i loved that feeling of starting anew. but as i got older, that feeling started to ware off. i wasnt as psyched about starting with a clean slate. cuz i knew somehow..i was bound to fuck up. finally my last year is here. its arrived. its really pretty much too late for anything i can do with grades besides my sat's, which are pretty much sealed. and apps are coming up. most people i know this year are taking a break and only taking 3-4 classes and shit. some of them deserve this break, and others never really gave a shit. as for me, my schedule is the hardest ive had my whole high school. my counselor asked me ," you really dont need to take so many hard classes, why???" well the reason is for ME. im taking these classes for ME. for 3 yrs ive done nothing and just when the time comes for something to be done, its all too late. but its not about that, its not like these grades are important anymore. i want this to be my accomplishment. something i can be proud of. looking back, i have NOTHING to be proud of. hopefully i can make something of myself this year.

PaaaaaaatricK ;-)

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 02:38:17 GMT

moment of the day...

seeing mr. bingham and some extremely obese girl eating lunch at KFC.... wait, that extremely obese girl was his wife... ouch.

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Sat, 21 Aug 2004 02:37:12 GMT

alright, last year was a bitch. i kept coming in n out of classes cuz either i was bored, or the shit was just too much to handle. i had at least 2235234234 different schedules last year. hopefully i can commit to these classes and keep this schedule till graD. so here it is ...*DRUMROLL*

my REVISED schedule...( ive toyed with this shit as much as i could, and this is what happens).

0. CALC Ab
1. aP Environmental
2. aP Physics
3. Ap GOV
4. nO CLASS- w00t w00t longer lunch fo MEEEEE
5 aP english IV
6. SWiM.

if any of you pplz have any of the same classes with me! tell me please! *so i know who to get my hhmwrk off of....* ughhh i meant ....lol.nevermind.

i feel like crying evertime i look at my schedule.

gay counselors..and their gay-nesss...

fuck tennis.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 04:56:40 GMT

i just got my new membership card from the USTA in the mail yesterday. i joined in 99.. i have yet to play in a tennis tournament.

officially missing you.

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 10:36:25 GMT

ok i havent slept since saturday. so if this damn entry is stupid or pointless fuck off. so summer is almost over and in a way. im glad. i want to put everything behind me and start anew. last year was horrible..one shitstorm after another. this summer was pointless. i did nothing and/or learned anything new. it was all the same. party here and there..nothing great. all i know is i saw a shitload of movies..and went to miss teen usa pageant, which was the most craziest experience ever. the girls were amazing and so was she. i saw the village too.lol daym what a night. i havent had so much SMACK in da face..aka JAcK in the Box. insooo long. lots of ppl said the village was stuuupid but i didnt think so. oh yea for all of you that dont know..i got into a car accident. i hit some stupid gardener. oh well.i met a really cool person during my 2 months of hell at summer school. she makes me happy. her names viviana and weve been hangin out more or less.
i promise to update more fer you all..once more.

PatrAaaacK....

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 01:49:50 GMT

yesterday was the best day of summer.

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 01:16:33 GMT

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Tue, 06 Jul 2004 05:29:58 GMT

k so long time time, no update, ive left the Lj world, and moved on to the MYspace..myspace is fun :) sOoO anywayz in the words of Berta, "this update is so pointless"... today i did nothing, i woke up at 12, and watched spongebob. and thats so raven. this is my life, and its ENDING one minute at a time. Ill update later u shits.

PatTy C.

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Sun, 27 Jun 2004 03:33:23 GMT

iite. its saturday nite. im here in LA with the cuzins. last nite was the shit, went to anaheim, came home at 4. and missed a wedding cuz we woke up at 2..yea the rentz' were sorta pissed. but oh well i wasnt interested goin' anyways...so everythin's been sorta ok with myself..lol.i guess..im starting to enjoy summer. now finally. DUMMER school has gotten better. thanks to some really cool people ive met. you ppl know who u are. Waterpolo is AWESOME. i dnt know why i never did it. im coming home tomorrow. hopefully ill make it in time for nico's memorial service.

SooO anyways this is my update u lil shits.
ill see YOU sooner or later.

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 00:47:15 GMT

oh god. what a week its been. in light of the recent events, im not sure how this entry will come out.. so bare with me.
First off, my condolences go out to the Chevalier family. nico was a good friend of mine and its just very sad for this to happen to such a bright person. it still hasnt hit me yet i stil cant believe it. Me and my friend Daniel were there at his work talking to him hours before this happened. and its just so crazy. i was speechless when i found out. i still am shocked. well, im pretty sure there is a memorial service on sunday, and i encourage all to go.

RIP nico

i cant feel my legs....I CANT FEEL MY LEEEGGGSSS!!!

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 07:08:31 GMT

as i promised. im updating daily. So anyways. today was iite. i was late to theater sort of.. and when i walked in , i kind of interrupted the "MEDITATION" exercise of Mallet's and she got sorta pissed. we played lotsa stupid games. n Constantine Lazarov was actin really dumb and making farting noises with his armpits..yea. odd kid.. got home at about 1.. DnL calls me and asks if i wanted ta see "white chicks" or "dodgeball" cuz i havent hung out with anyone in a long ass time. so we went and saw dodgeball..it was funny. FUCKNIG CHUCK NORRIS!!! then at about 4 i went to the pool. for my 1st WATERPOLO practice...HOLY FUCKING CHRIST. i have never felt so much pain in my legs in my entire life.. It was stil fun tho..lol.. we did a shitloada LAPS and i got hit with a fuckin Waterpolo ball..it hurt sort of... So yea. i decided to stick to waterpolo for my fallsport and i hope everythin goes alright. the coach said i swim akward..whatever im not quitting.
After practice went home..and eat..took a long nap..and here i am. midnite.
tomorrows thursday.. n' kinda wana go to the mall. well see what happens.

See u l8r

PaTrAcK CaCdAC.

life is too...long.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 04:55:03 GMT

hulloh,

So its summer.. and im in summer SCHOOL... my life cant get any worse...or could it?. well theater is so fucking stupid. its unbelievably, extremely, stupid. we played games such as "name that animal sound."..where we had to go into groups, then make an animal sound..then we turned off the lights in the blackbox..and try to get together w/ every1 in ur group...by making ur animal sound...my groups sound was the mating call of a Rhino-elephant...or as Derrick miramontes would call it..an "ELEPHINO".. and the "name gesture game"...i was ready to shoot myself. mah bosnian homie Amer was pissed too...we gon try to go to a REAL art class tomorrow..if not..GOD HELP US...oh ya..that gay security guard JIMBO is still around..acting like a fagg. as usual. well besides my 1st day of summer skule, my computer blew up. and is gettin fixed. so i gotta use my mommys computer. no mp3s or anything.. grrr.
I saw the Terminal the other day...good movie.kinda weird tho. but still OkAAAAAYY.. Uhmmmm other than that nothins happened in my world. nothing good at least. my cousins are plannin to go to Las Vegas for the 4th...hope that turns out OkaY. ill update soon. MEET tHE PARents is on...hell yes.

goodbye ., goodnite.
btw...i really hate SHADY MOTHER FUCKERS. peace.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 04:31:06 GMT

How to make a patrick

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

3 parts silliness

3 parts empathy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
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aHHHH!!!!!

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 01:00:10 GMT

shit. so today was a good day, till lunch. Everything seemed perfect. mom or dad wasnt bitching at me nor eachother. my lil bro robert was out doin somethin somewere and me, i woke up early to teach myself some precal. So from 7-12 im inside my room doing hmwrk that should have been done a long time ago. So at around 12 i decide to get me some PANDA EXPRESS.....this is where the shit hits the fan. So i take the car, newly washed, and waxed, just over to pavilions. i eat my lunch, and after that i decide to head home. BUt first, i decide to get gas...so well.. im done filling up, and its so damn hott.. so i exit out of the gas station, chevron. and make a left...when suddenly...i see the cars on the other side of the road going the same way....FUUUUUCK...PANICS!...so i try to make a full U-turn...no go...so i do the 3 point whateverfucking its called turn...so i back up. go forward...and BOOOOMMMMM,.cRAAsSHHH SMACKKKKKK i hit a post... the post is now bent to the ground and my car took its beating... the car won. but it has its battle wounds...the license plate came off...and theres a big fucking scrath in the middle... dNL said its not so bad..maybe hes right...but damn..this car is fucked. im fucked.. hopefully i can fix this shit by the end of tomorrow.

there is still hope.

Sat, 22 May 2004 07:18:10 GMT

alright. so tomorrow's prom. ive decided to go, yet i have no money, and no tux?. yes im in deep shit. this week has to of been one of the worst weeks of this year, and ironically it turned out to be one of the best. my week started really shitty with chemistry, precal, and well..pretty much all my classes. My gay english teacher is makin us read Macbeth and literally shovin that shit up our asses. Mr. Raymond officially made it his lifes duty to fail me. And Mrs. Mckinney is as usual a dumb slut. ive been in Mrs Gonzales room everyday at lunch getting help from her for the chem final. she understands that i dont understand shit, and is helping me. and doing a damn fine job. people have been playing cards at lunch n havinfun while i stay in and study. this is the price i pay for being a lazy shit the whole year. and i accept it. tuesday the tennis team went to CIF, and lost..gracefully. it was a good season fellas. wednesday, became the longest day ever. i found out that i had 7+ absences in each of my clases. that means a potential straight F report card. i dont think i could get into COD with that. so i go to all my teachers and ask them if they could help me out...yeh right...but they become gracious and say that if i go to all saturday skules, theyre cool and wont touch my grade...what a relief. so on top of that i had to study for chem and precal.

thursday was different. precal test. not too bad. i got a 90! it felt good. i wrote another article for the newspaper. on van helsing...and the next will be on Shrek 2! i also found out that Coach W. wont be returning next year. he will be missed.

today was the JSA elections. damn was i a nervous wreck. i was late for the speeches because i was at the lunchtables gathering votes. it didnt work. so i get into binghams and decide to drop out....after 7 minutes into the elections i decide to come in. i dont know what got into me. so i get up on the podium and gave my 10 second speech. well, i end up losing. but i dont regret running. it was kinda fun being up there in fronta everyone..almost shit my pants..i didnt really care anymore about winning or losing, im glad i ran.

5th and 6th i just sat there and thought about this whole year. ive been thru lotsa shit this year with alotta ppl. people whove turned their backs on me, and people whove stuck beside me. from losing a cellfone to mexican drugdealers, waking up in random cars with a sunvisor as blanket(yes u read that correctly) and to nearly killing someone because of their ignorance and stupidity .i did it all this year. this has been one helluva ride, and its not even over yet. i cant wait to find out what my senior year has in store for me.

Thu, 20 May 2004 00:00:23 GMT

there are no words that can describe how horrible, atrocious?. and how extremely fucked in the head...today was..saturday school for rest of the year. and possible failing grades...i feel like this whole world is coming down on me. after my really fucked up stressful day at school. i came home. and yelled my lungs out (into a pillow .didnt wana wake the baby up ya know?)...i lost my voice, and fell asleep. now im awake...contemplating ways for me to die. an internet broadcast beheading sounds fun.

Tue, 18 May 2004 23:03:06 GMT

this is my update.

update i must.

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 03:31:41 GMT

i feel i need to update. tomorrow is last day of testing :( ... tomorrow we play palm desert :( ...friday is the ping pong tournament :)..so anywayZ. ive been havin lotsa fun lately...missin a lil' toooOooOoo many classes. but oh well. uhmm. nothing exciting really. then again, when does something exciting happen? my weekends are shot. sundays i have sat from 12-5 but its fun cuz some old friends are there. and we just mess around. saturdays, goin to LA..but thats getting better. braces will be off this summer. oh joy. ive got caught up on all my hmwrk and skulework. and im just "chilaxin". 0 period is becomin way borin. at least theres no more chem to study...but just sittin there playin HARRY POTTER UNo isnt too much fun. this morning i completed my PERU project. Mrs. G. helped me translate my paper into spanish, it was awesome. Mrs G. is just an awesome teacher. i swear, if i were a gurl. id be MRs. gonzalez.......hmm..maybe not. well anyways. 1st period i just talked to Austin and suzi bout shtuff...and the rest of the day was just chill after that 2nd period we went to Teasers. it was kinda good/horrible. the guy that played "che" was horrible. and a little too queer to be in the military..i guess in the argentenian military, they enforce the "DONT ASK dONT TELL" policy. evita was good. 3rd period went and saw some old man talk about history. DEGLER. i slept, or at least tried to. his whole schtick went all the way thru mid 4th period..so after his lil speech, there was food! yes FOOD. Free. food+free=free food. the subs were damn good, and so was the salad.so we ended up havin a looong ass lunch. which i dont mind, at all. felt kinda bad tho for the peeps who didnt get subs. sowwee guys. talked to zach about his trip. he liked the 5gzillion cd's i made him and he listened to them all the way to Co-net-ee-cut. it was coOL. 5th period was pretty good. didnt do much. left after to go to the racquet club. hit with Ron and gio. playd indio. good stuff.
when i got home, to my surprise, there was 1 large papa DANS pizza on my desk... wow. i ALMOST shit my pants. if yall dont know. PAPA dan is the fucking asshole responsible for my 4 absences from skule last week. i was poisoned. Papa dan, if youre reading this..i just wana say...FUUUUUCKK YOUUU.. ok so i just gave the pizza to the cleaning bitch to give to her kids. watchin some b-ball. im gona go play ping pong later. maybe. i have a 1/2 mohawk now, its not complete. in time it will. im startin to lose touch with some friends. friends ive known for quite some time, some i met just this year, and some i just met couple months ago.. i regret that i dont hang out much with some of the ppl i used to hang out with, but others, im glad that we have lost contact. some people, just by looking at them, u just wanna break their face in. i feel like im just gonna snap whenever im around these people. theyre usually the conceited im "2 cool to hang out" people. yeh, and theyre gay. ok im gettin a little too crazy.. but oh well. thats just how i feel about some persons nowadays. ughh ok. so my update has come to an end. gona go shower and watch the rest of the Laker game. theyre gona win. im goin to summer skule? FUCK.....at USD???? FUcK YEea. im pretty psyched. i didnt think the parental units would give in. but they did. its gona be awesome. ive never been to USd. so im lookin forward to it. this summer is startin to look pretty good. things are FINALLY. yes FINALLY. starting to turn my way.

PattYwacK..is..out.

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 10:14:35 GMT

okay, so its been a while since the last update. apologies. but lots of shit has happened since my last post. LOTS. life is good. im driving my car now. thank buddha. im doing a little above average in school. only one C....yay. Ps tennis team is kickin serious ass...minus a couple setbacks. boys tennis is doin pretty good id hafta say..(most of u know the true meaning to that statement). im talking to old friends again and making new ones, despite the fact schoolyear is almost over. uhm.... pissed off the whole youth 4 jesus KreW! wid my review of the passion :) ... and made more ppl happy with my review of lost in translation . :)..so yea ive got a job at the desert sun...well its actually an internship, but i like to think of it as a job. uhhhm...ive stopped working out...my muscles were becoming too big for my azn body. oh yeah ,,for all of u who dont know whose been yelling obscenities in the pods at PshS..u must be a dumbass if u dont know by now, its moi. so everyday during 2nd and 3rd period ive been goin around to each pod and yellin at the top of my lungs like a crazy man. its great disrupting classes with a "whhhhaaaat?"" or sometimes..an occassional "yeaaahhhhuhh". its fun.so overall im doin Ok..maybe cuz its spring. it was bob's 13th bday april 1st ..oh joy ..now a teen. for those of u that dont know, robert medina cacdac is the pudgy little person that lives in the room next to mine. unfortunately we are related. he somewhat resembles a younger Jon lovitz. friday was pretty CoO..despite my 1 million unexcused absences, i decided to take another day off and go to the spa at the WYNDHAM wid some friends. it was fun till it got cold. got home about 4 then slept all the way till saterrrday morning. today i went to EL A, ortho appt..and now my teeth feel like shit..AHHHHHHHHHH. my gay orthodontist told me im gona hafta have my braces for maybe 6 months longer...fucker. my hair is shorter..its not suppost to be. but it is..and now i look like a "biker lesbian" according to austin parker and taiga abe.. i went to glendale galleria after appt. from 3-7 i walked every square inch of that damn mall...and now my teeth and legs feel like shit..not to mention i was hungry as fuck and had 0 pesos left. so i go to my cuz;s house and at 9 oclock the whole fam goes to chinatown..FULL-house biaaaatch...godd it was amazing. havent had good chinese in a long,long time. i wanted to see hellboy, havent yet..but i will, it looks promising. april 16..uma thurman is finally..going..to KILL BILL...woohooo..ive waited long enough. so its 3 am. and this post is nearly finished.. but b4 i go id like to thank all of u that have always been there for me whenever i needed you.much mahal ladies and gents. and to all u seniors that mayb upset with the whole college status bullshit...everything turns out.. i have yet to experience the pains and heartaches of a rejection letter. i dont know what im gonna do for this spring break...maybe hang out with cuzins..or visit some old friends at CsOd,,there spring break isnt till next week.. so yea thats it.. ill be updating more often now..i hope al of u will have a great spring break...

BREAK SPRINGS ON SPRING BREAK

PatriCK, C.

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 04:21:48 GMT

im going to blow up any second...i need to get out of this fucking town... the world would be ok... every day gets fucking worse.. we always ask for "breaks" but whats the fuckin point?.. the break is going to end and its gona be back to fucking normal?..i need to start anew.i need a clean slate.. my life is falling apart.. everything is just so fuckin stupid..my grades for one..my relationship with my friends is crumbling.. my parents. who could fucking care less whats happening to me..that is of course if i become an "M.d." just like father then everything is ok..i cant wait to leave them.. im ready for college .another year at this school is just too much right now. the biggest mistake ive made is coming to PSHS. i wouldnt have so much shit to deal with!! i hate coming to school and being who i am for everyone. im tired of amusing all of you.i hate having to pretend to act nice and hilarious.. ive done all i could, and it still isnt enuf is it? nice guys DO finish last.. DAMN! wish i had musical talent then id make a shitloada $$ for all the songs i could write... i need time to think about everything...this could very well be the last update. if so, it was nice knowing all you LJ whores.

Patrick.